Colleen Margaret Shiras, my Mother-in-Law, went to be with the Lord around 10 am on Monday, November 26, 2012. She was 61 years old. Lymphoma ended her life much sooner than any of us could have expected and it all started a few months back when she fell and couldn’t walk on her leg. Tests discovered she had two holes in her knee caused by Lymphoma. During her stay at the hospital she lost the mobility of her legs and back, her medications were constantly being altered, her voice was becoming weaker and would talk in a whisper and the cancer was spreading to her brain. There were so many questions and no easy explanation for anything. Should Colleen have surgery on her leg &/or back? Will she walk again? Should she do chemotherapy? What about radiation? Everything overlapped one another making decisions even more difficult. No matter which way you looked at it, doing anything would greatly threaten her health. So, after more tests and discussions with the doctors they decided that surgery was out of the question and chemotherapy was not an option either due to her current state and it was just too dangerous. She was put on hospice and sent home to be cared for by her loving husband and the nurses from hospice. At this point we all hoped once at home in familiar surroundings her health would improve, but soon found out that God had other plans. Before long the good days were replaced by sleep filled days, an epileptic episode due to a medication imbalance, inability to eat solid foods or swallow, losing completely mobility, loss of her voice, a stroke, etc. Her health was declining and fast. Through it all, Paul was her rock and showered her with love and kindness. I have no doubt she felt loved by her Savior, husband, family and friends.
Unknown to us, Thanksgiving weekend would be the last time we would see her face to face. We had so hoped to be able to speak to her and have her interact with the boys, but she was asleep the entire time except for two moments where her eyes opened and then closed again. We also didn’t foresee having a miscarriage the first day we arrived either. Our baby was 9 weeks and 5 days old. I cannot even explain the pain that filled our hearts, but I am now comforted in knowing Colleen is with the Lord, her body has been renewed and she is with our baby in Heaven. I can’t be certain why things happen, but I am learning to trust God in midst of the whys.
Philippians 3:20-21 “But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself.”
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 “So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.”